From anxiety to calm

One of my clients has written a blog about her journey with anxiety, OCD tendencies and coming off the implant.  She has documented how homeopathy has helped her through this phase of her life, I am posting her blog below anonymously.  One of the things I love about homeopathy is how it can help people on such a deep yet gentle level.


“By September 2017, I couldn’t start the day without knowing EXACTLY what we would be doing. What time we would be going, how long we would spend there, where we would go next, what time we would eat, where we would eat, what we would eat…..you get the picture. I needed the answer to everything I might face that day.

I was battling with my weight. I know now that I don’t need to, but I was so permanently fixated on it, that it was at the centre of most decisions I was making. Did I want to go out with friends…..yes as long as I didn’t have to eat. Night out?……..I’d count the calories of everything I was going to drink beforehand, then spend the rest of the week paying for it.

I was at a stage where I literally couldn’t walk into a Supermarket without having written a meal plan, written a list, worked out how much it would cost me, how much the fuel may have cost compared with driving to a different, cheaper store. I could tell you the balance of my bank account, to the penny, at any given moment. It was relentless.

My lists had become famous amongst my friends. I had lists for everything, lists of lists, lists of plans –   and god help anyone if they made me deviate from my plan, because I simply couldn’t accept any alternative, as rational as I may have been at the time, it simply wasn’t optional.

It wasn’t just the lists planning that had taken over, Id developed new habits too. I’d walk around the house constantly switching off sockets, unplugging things, locking doors –  and would even drive home from wherever I was to make sure that I had done, whenever I wasn’t 100% sure. Its pretty exhausting when you feel this way, but I couldn’t sleep either. I’d wake at the same time most nights and my thoughts would take over. I’d worry about anything, everyone, money, work, what I was doing with my life, complete paranoia about who I might or might not have upset. Believe me, I never ran out of things to think about!  Not to mention that I was in the middle of exams at the time too!

By the time I saw Helen in October, I had cried EVERY day – for months and I needed the OFF button. I knew was in trouble. I’d been toying with the idea of going to see someone for a while, but probably didn’t want to admit to anyone how bad things actually were – and honestly, I didn’t know where to start, or what it was that I needed, to get me back on my feet.

At the time I’d started reading up (that was my latest obsession) about the combined effects of different contraception, on mental health and couldn’t help but feel it could be related, as I was then on my second Nexplanon implant and had had multiple DepoProvera injections prior to then.

I remember reading a particular blog about someone else’s experience with Nexplanon and I felt like it was written about me…….I genuinely couldn’t believe what I was seeing. Naively, I had no idea that there could have been any kind of a connection – it just wasn’t on my radar? I feel kind of foolish now, I will admit.  I decided that the implant had to go. But realised that I was probably going to need some more help putting things back together.

I had the implant removed at the earliest opportunity (which apparently the NHS don’t like doing!?). I was asked by the Doctor at the time, why I wanted it removed and I explained. I was told categorically, that there was no connection between contraception and mental health. I was told that I had depression and advised to go onto anti-depressants.

This wasn’t the answer I was looking for. I was reluctant to take on any more unnecessary chemicals and politely refused the advice.

I won’t lie, I was worried. I was worried that my state of mind at that time had become learned behaviour and that even after I had the implant removed, that this was still going to be the person I had become. That what had been done, couldn’t be undone.

Having had some experience of homeopathy as a child, it was something I felt drawn to, to revisit. I started researching (for a change) and came across Helens website. It felt right. I contacted Helen immediately and arranged to see her 2 days after my implant was removed.

My initial meeting with Helen was terrifying. To actually sit down and tell someone all of the things that I had been feeling for the last few years was a really big deal for me. It was an achievement then to get through a sentence without crying, feeling like and emotional idiot, or in most cases – both!But, I had no reason to be worried. Helen just took it all in, everything I threw at her, as if it was the most normal thing in the world, we may as well have been talking about what was on TV last night! We went through absolutely everything. As relevant or irrelevant as it may have seemed to me, it was all important to Helen.

I was sent my first remedies a few days after that first meeting and started as instructed. I haven’t looked back. There were a couple of bumps in the first week or so. I contacted Helen when I felt I needed to, but she reassured me and we stuck with the remedies. The important thing to me was that one way or another, this was progress and I wasn’t just standing still.

I’ve seen Helen every 4-6 weeks then and she has adjusted the remedies, if required, as things have improved. I cannot believe the difference, I really didn’t think it would be such an improvement, so quickly. Initially, I read up on every remedy she had given me. I wanted to know what it was, what it was made from, what symptom is was used to treat etc. Now just take it- regardless!

I’ve relaxed! The overwhelming fear and negativity of unknown situations has so quickly lifted. I can take “I don’t know” for an answer and I can just “be” on a Saturday morning without a plan for the rest of the weekend. I can’t remember a time when I have felt like I do now.

Don’t get me wrong, I do have the occasional little worry, but I can talk about it now and deal with it before it spirals out of control like it would have previously. And, I think it is normal to worry about somethings, so that’s ok. Last week I went shopping, without so much as a scrap of a list in sight. Sounds ridiculous but that’s something I never imagined I would do!

Having had the implant removed, I understood that it could take some time for my periods to return, let alone regulate. Well they returned within 5 weeks, and since then have been like clockwork!!?I’m starting to feel like I have got “myself” back again and I wasn’t sure that was going to happen. That’s taken four months. I so wish I had done it sooner”.

I have devised a Healthy Hormones Package to help you if you can relate to any of this blog. What better time of year to put your self-care first; I love working with women to help them feel calm, centred and balanced again.  I only have capacity for 5 lovely ladies to sign up to my healthy hormones package before Christmas! I’d love it if you would like to start your journey to good health with me.  You can find out more about the package and its benefits here or email me at helen@helenjefferies.co.uk or call 07387 553140,